For the past couple of years I’ve been dreading getting older, so I wasn’t that excited for my birthday this year. Some think I’m too young to be having birthday anxiety, which is maybe true haha. But I can’t wrap my head around the fact that I’ll be twenty a year from now! 18 was good to me, nothing had to change🙈.
My birthday blues has nothing to do with the day itself though. It’s fun getting to celebrate and having an extra special day. I went bowling with a few friends and had some gigantic pizzas:) And I really didn’t expect all the gifts either.
I guess it’s just the ‘getting older’ part that sucks the fun out of the day. Buuut instead of being sad about reality, I admit that I’ve had a great life so far. The 19 years in my life have been beyond amazing, I wouldn’t want it any other way. I’m at a great place in life right now as well. There really isn’t anything to complain about. So I’ll focus on what’s good. At the end of the day, we get older whether we like it or not… which just means we should spend the limited time we have, the best way possible.
What’s scary about getting older, now that I’m done with school is that everything I do is completely up to me. As a student, there was always a “next school year”. After the summer, my biggest concern was which of my batch mates I’d end up in the same class with, which notebooks, pens backpacks or shoes to buy. In a way, it’s almost like every child has a certain way they’re expected to live. A system to follow. Rules to obey. That changes as we grow, of course. Once we’re out of school, it’s up to us. We’re on our own finding out what we want to do with our lives. It’s a relief we get to choose our own paths but it is scary too. Scary, but exciting.
Anywho… age is just a number, i guess?🤷🏽♀️ I’m thankful for the past and thrilled to see what the future holds🎊